written 4.25.2021

I want to sink my nails in and pray “please don’t let go”

I wanted to silence any doubt or worry in your mind

and yet

I wanted you to do this on your own

Deep down I don’t want to convince anyone

The more you squeeze the less they hold on

This feels like bad karma

I don’t want love if I have to plead for it to stay

I need to have enough grace and security on my own that I feel comfortable releasing a person

no matter how much I want them

So I’ll practice relaxing my grip – no holding on for my dear life

I’m use to holding my breath but I need to welcome the exhale

always exhale

if you feel someone slipping be sure about it… and let go.

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