I just finished reading the devotional of the day inside my car. I sent my friends an encouraging voice note and also asked them to pray over me… I’ve been needing my ego to take a back seat. This morning, I got to work early. The last two slices of pound cake were waiting to be heated up alongside my ginger honey tea. I popped the trunk and grabbed my work bag and lunch box. As I was making my way down the crosswalk, I noticed a green cube car in my peripheral that wasn’t slowing down. When I turned to look, I heard the car accelerate and saw the driver looking to the left (everyone is eager to get a parking spot right in front of the building). And in slow motion, I yelled and jumped put of the way. She was so close to hitting me. I was in shock. I had to be 8 feet away from the entrance of the building… what are the odds of something like this happening to close to safety. I scanned my badge, and walked into the lobby, then sat down. I tried comforting myself. I called my mom – that helped. Two coworkers witnessed the incident and couldn’t believe what they saw. I’m thankful they checked on me. The person who almost hit me came in and apologized multiple times. She said “I didn’t see you. I’m so sorry… truly. Let me know if you need anything”. But I couldn’t think of a single need… and if I had… I’m not sure I’d have wanted her to provide it.

When I reached my desk, I finished the call with my mom. Tears fell from my face and gratitude whispered from my lips. I’m sitting here now, noticing the chatter around me. The joking and laughter… the sound of typing and mouse clicks. It’s strange how my external environment is oblivious to my internal chaos. As my body regulated, I had an epiphany. All the debt I’ve been working on paying off, the plans I make with friends and family, the studying and aspirations I have would all be for nothing if I ceased to exist. Bear with me. I know financial planning and memories with loved ones are impactful but when an individual’s light goes “out” they have nothing to show for… nothing goes with you.

The most important thing worth having and maintaining is the relationship with my Savior.

Even this incident served a purpose.