release – Zaira Viteria

Something in me knows better

She knows it’s not safe here

Things are looking familiar

No physical danger

But an emotional minefield

Mind field

Brain & intuition at war

I’m still learning to fully trust myself

I know it’s not safe here

Where’s the security?

You’re safe in me

But myself? In you?

No. Where’s the security?

Glean never-ending reassurance

and leave me barren

You’re taking me from my element

Pulling me from my essence

and leaving me empty

I have to protect her

You’ve seen the love I can give

Your eyes grow green; your aura dark

Wanting what’s mine

I want to be wrong but she whispers

“Run”.

written 4.25.2021

I want to sink my nails in and pray “please don’t let go”

I wanted to silence any doubt or worry in your mind

and yet

I wanted you to do this on your own

Deep down I don’t want to convince anyone

The more you squeeze the less they hold on

This feels like bad karma

I don’t want love if I have to plead for it to stay

I need to have enough grace and security on my own that I feel comfortable releasing a person

no matter how much I want them

So I’ll practice relaxing my grip – no holding on for my dear life

I’m use to holding my breath but I need to welcome the exhale

always exhale

if you feel someone slipping be sure about it… and let go.

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Zaira Viteria